Gaining Intimacy

By B. Williams

Imagine this:

Four years ago. In a quiet room, there sits a glossy, stained wooden dining room table. The room is well-lit and inviting. There’s two chairs facing each other. In one chair, sits Jesus.

He sits there awaiting me. Excitingly awaiting me to come, to know him and him to know me. He’s ready to overwhelm me with His character and communion.

I enter the room.

I somewhat eagerly walk towards the table. I am anxious to get to Him, but I have brought a lot with me. Overflowing out of my hands are the piles of garbage I have brought in. It smells. It’s gross to look at. It’s distracting.

I sit at the table and spread out the garbage before Him.

At these communions, I haven’t brought this garbage to surrender at His feet. I’ve brought it in to lay out in front of me. I’m distracted by it. It’s in front of me and has my attention more than He does. In fact, at most of these dinners, I have piled up the trash so high, I can’t even fix my eyes on Him.

This stuff isn’t really bad stuff. It can be turned back into good if I decorate it a little,” I tell myself. “I don’t want Him to have it, I know He will throw it away. I want to keep it, because my life won’t look the same without it.

I don’t enjoy dinner or our conversation, the little that we had, and I blame Him for it.

“But whatever gain I had, I counted as loss for the sake of Christ. Indeed, I count everything as loss compared to the surpassing worth of knowing Christ Jesus my Lord. For his sake I have suffered the loss of all things and count them as rubbish, in order that I may gain Christ, and be found in Him…” Philippians 3:7-9

4 years ago, I hadn’t considered anything in my life as garbage compared to knowing Christ. I wasn’t ready or even willing to lose any of it for the sake of gaining fellowship with Him.

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It’s Ok to Not Feel Ok

By Jordan Guerra

We’re all allowed to have bad days. Some feel worse than others. When those days happen sometimes it can be difficult to completely give everything to God for many reasons. So heres some scripture that may help you out!

Know it’s okay that you don’t feel happy sometimes.

“To everything there is a season… A time to weep, and a time to laugh; a time to mourn, and a time to dance…” Ecclesiastes 3:1&4

Know that God really does care about your troubles. He has every one of your tears and remembers them.

“You number my wanderings; put my tears into Your bottle; Are they not in Your book?” Psalm 56:8

God wants you to give all of your worries to Him because He loves you.

“Casting all your care upon Him, for He cares for you.” 1 Peter 5:7

Joy and healing will come in time.

“In the multitude of my anxieties within me, Your comforts delight my soul.” Psalm 94:19